| long time no write. sorry. here's a little update. there's nothing much to report on. i'm still female, still taken, and still driving. i fixed the window to my car. wish i still had my journal. you @$$#0!%. i know you did it. and i'm gonna get you for it. i hope you're having fun with your new fiance. and i hope living together is as awesome as people say. have a $#!^^& wedding. i hope she cheats on you like you did me. i'm still at honkerbean's. blasted work work work. that's all i do. i'm still alive. until i die from overworking. i'm also selling jewelry now. lia sophia. i like it. it's super cute stuff. you should have a party sometime. i'll take care of you. just host it and get free stuff. it's great. i'm getting ready for school....fine arts is first though. ugh. this is gonna be a long week. i can't wait for it to be over. mom's making dinner. i need to eat...i'm starving! it smells so good. like taco's. yum. time to go find a new journal. again. maybe i can find the same kind....it was cool... peace out crackers. i'm out.
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| oh it hurts... he just shows up. out of nowhere. after 9 months...now. out of nowhere. im going to be sick. its not supposed to hurt anymore... |
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| at least...thats what it feels like. right now. and i will find out the truth tomorrow. i want to die. someone hold me. and just let me cry. |
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| wow...oh how things change. still workin like a mother...at both my jobs. except one job is a pain and the manager girl is a ditz. oh well. my other job...the coffee shop...merged with the "deli" two doors down. well...they came to us. but now we have a full menu and still the coffee and dessert and all that good stuff. my favorite manager is leaving. it's really hard not to cry...i love working with her. i am really gonna miss her. school stuff is makin me crazy. my mom and i are arguing about my choice of location and how on earth i am supposed to pay for it since they cant help. i told her thats why they have student loans and scholarships. i dont need their help. i hadnt panned on it because i know they cant afford it. but she wants me closer. i need to get away...so you can guess where that argument went. then she was suddenly like...well your boyfriend is not gonna be there....so why would you go? like he changes my plans. i learned that lesson with another guy. if i hadnt cancelled my plans for him, id be done there now. oh well. you live, you learn. of course, if i hadnt cancelled my plans...things would be alot different than they are now and i might be in a bad situation. thankfully....i have a place to go. the question now is how to i get there. because if i leave now...my folks will flip. things will plummet. and they will burn bridges behind me. i guess what happens happens. that sucks. i need sleep. i need to write in this more often. it helps. all my journals are full. rok on
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this song is ssssoooooo good. good grief is it familiar. |
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| it's been awhile...i know...shoot me. work is going splendid. i got a new job and took a semester off from school so i could work. i have two jobs now. job training for the new one is tomorrow from 1400-1630 or so. i'm excited. i love looking professional. this weekend is the midwest regional barista competition. i want to go compete but i didn't have enough notice. so i'm going to watch this year and do it next year. i love this stuff!!! i should be sleeping...so i'm off. but i wanted to let you all know i'm still alive! love
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